Yesterday I found a moth.
Not just a moth. A giant moth.
A moth with wings like lengths of cloth.
Fat and soft as a mossy sloth.
A moth that made me go, ‘Oh, goth!’
It was a really big moth.
It was a behemoth.
It’s a bookmark. It’s a magazine. It’s free.
You’ll find it lurking in bookshops and libraries, or nestled between pages of other magazines.
Submissions are collected and posted online. Every few months, we pick our top nine and print an issue.
Buy online or collect for free from your local stockist
Yesterday I found a moth.
Not just a moth. A giant moth.
A moth with wings like lengths of cloth.
Fat and soft as a mossy sloth.
A moth that made me go, ‘Oh, goth!’
It was a really big moth.
It was a behemoth.
is the city where the streets meet the sky in a grey agreement. The fierce love I hold for this city overwhelms me.
The grey sky… to describe it as grey would be acceptable once. The second time it’s an amateur watercolour painted too heavy and layered, a sausage-and-mash of the harshest muddy blue and black, smokey tones that lose definition and blend blend blend until the sky emerges. The buildings like it, I can tell – by the way they their mirrored faces welcome the clouds and rain and reflect the light, inviting them into the traffic. The bright cranes are in direct conflict with the sky – mechanical giraffes gracefully mating across afternoon windows. How many more metaphors can this city take?
Already swelling up to the brim with foreign matter. Already weary with tomorrow, the daily congregation of salmon, filing upstream on escalators. Sardine situations. Close up underground polaroids of fragmented commuters, burnt onto my memory in the harsh tungsten lights.
I want to blend in with the stations and Tesco’s and five a.m. pigeons. It glows, with pride and council housing. Explodes at me with tree blossoms at the start of spring, with embankment glitter on a sunny evening, the air smelling like rough jazz and overwhelming caramel.
I look around and see little bits of love happening. Amazing people you would, but won’t get the chance to, as they’re leaving in a day or in a month or a moment – king-crossing on a slip of parallell universe, a sliver of acknowledgment of an hour in this lifetime that meant more – the comedown. London’s gracious payback for making you so high.
balloonist.
failed
a
He’s
Farouk.
uncle
my
to
that
Tell
down.
come
must
up
goes
What
Dalston Cross Shopping Hall,
Time stopped, our eyes met,
Whilst looting T-Mobile
For brand new handsets.
Your smile stopped my heartbeat,
In burning car light,
(A torched Fiat Punto
Had lit up the night)
Though Clyde to your Bonnie,
You ransacked my heart,
Crime brought us together,
Crime tore us apart
My Angel! My Seraph!
Of Pembury Estate,
Fallen from floor fourteen,
Council flat eight
Your kiss was Lambrini,
Mixed with Mac Lip Gloss,
Your Blackberry message
Alerted the cops
My wing-footed Venus!
My Angel! My Muse!
The law tried to take back
Your new Fila Shoes
Though riot vans chased you,
True love intervened,
I tackled a copper,
To let you run free
But love’s strong arm wilted,
‘Gainst riot batons,
Whilst the Pigs battered me,
You laughed and ran on
I languish in Penton
Ville, send me a sign,
Your Primarni pants, or
A mixtape of Grime
I picture you often,
True queen of my thoughts,
In dreams you kick shop fronts,
Outside JD Sports
Give show that you love me,
Imprisoned, I wait,
I shall send a bouquet,
To Pembury Estate.
What’ll you do once you’ve finally concluded this book? Sigh, slam the thing shut and keep hold of the bookmark? So we’d perhaps optimistically hope… But what did Nick Zammuto do when he’d finally finished with the Books, a project he professes to have “loved” in the belly of the Barbican? Well, he went on to pen another zany opus under his very own “culturally ambiguous” patronymic Zammuto, that’s bloomin’ well what…
“Like most things I do, while I’m setting them up I have absolutely no idea what I’m getting into”, his voice caving in to a jejune chirrup of laughter. Never one to do things by halves, nor indeed by any fraction yet known to the human mind, he’s still learning.
However he concedes to losing his way somewhat following what sounds like a rather inimical breakup: “This record was like a do-or-die situation for me. And I felt as though maybe I should quit because, you know, it’s so hard on my family. But my wife and friends encouraged me 100%. To just go for it; to go and do something new.”
Although not entirely new – the rampaging bass lines of The Way Out slink through the ominous mechanical thunder of F U C-3PO; sample interlude Crabbing recalls the Books’ collagist approach; the self-professed ‘Grammar Stickler’ swoons through Auto-Tune on Too Late To Topologize, a searing denunciation of that dastardly Timbaland track perhaps – yet in scrapping the scraps of sound and opting to gallivant toward this unquanitified “something new”, Zammuto has galvanized his presence to inscribe a comprehensible future.
At
7ft
tall,
Bernard
was
the
tallest
man
in
the
North
East.
He
would
receive
free
drinks
wherever
he
went.
His
tipple
of
choice
was
“Turbo
Vimto”
an
insidious
blend
of
port
and
blue
WKD.
There
was
a
nasty
brush
with
gout.
Followed
by
an
amputation.
Now
he’s
of
average
height.
1998 – A man waits three minutes for an image to download. Half way through he clicks ‘back’.
2012 – A man waits three minutes for a 10 minute HD video to download halfway through he clicks ‘back’.
The heir to the Tippex fortune spent his inheritance on jets, cars, women and parties – it wasn’t long before he’d wiped it out.
Door bell.
Shake hands.
Coat off.
Push through.
Kitchen throng.
Warm wine.
Living room.
Background chatter.
Scan round.
Not him.
Not him.
Not him.
Eye contact.
Not you.
Not him.
But you.
Yes you.
And how.
And now.
Glide over.
Small talk.
Bigger claims.
Wider smiles.
Delicate touches.
Guiding hands.
Taxi called.
Coats retrieved.
Threshold crossed.
Eyes closed.
Forever started.
Wife – What’s that woman got around her neck?
Husband – Where? What Woman?
Wife – Don’t Stare but there in the the grey to…
Husband – You mean the Hippie with the Beard
Wife – Oh, maybe I do need glasses…
I want to write a novel
I want to tell a long story
paced and moody
heavy in weight
bound by Rosa Parks spine
I want to write a pit bull of a book that
barks
that bites
I want to write a novel
but what
the hell do I know about writing novels?
novels are long
so long
James Dean is easy
James Dean is a shooting star
but Marlon’s gut
gets bigger and bigger
each marriage
a bigger crash than last
a short story can
shoot its girlfriend
shoot heroine
flood its lungs
no Noah to build no Ark
but a novel
a novel loses hair
a novel lives the death of punk
a novel sells butter on TV
I want to write a novel so bad
It’s too hot.
Everyone is busy
Blaming everyone else.
Saying they’ve tried their best
and done nothing at all.
And now it’s broken.
Denial is beautiful.
When she cries, she is forgiven.
When he cries, she believes in his love.
To be described as pure, is bingo.
Until a slip of a thing, she will seek discipline.
As a bride, she vows to breathe her past closed.
As a mother, she will be reborn.
People on the Piccadilly Line were eating themselves.
At least, that was the rumour. He’d heard that as food had run out, they’d started hacking at their arms like salami – starting with the pinky, working towards the thumb, then up the wrist and beyond the elbow. Everyone giving up one limb if needed. To keep it democratic.
Barbaric. But that was the Piccadilly Line. Their battle with the western section of the District had begun only days after the thuds forced everyone under. He had little experience of both of those lines – a water raid at Finsbury; a revenge skirmish for a rape at Victoria – and was thankful for it. They had once found a young girl who told stories of Gloucester Road platforms covered in corpses piled high as the ceiling. He had somehow managed to convince everyone that they couldn’t just leave her – but soon discovered that she kept everyone not on watch awake with her nightmares. They’d had to ‘lose’ her within a week.
He stubbed the big toe on his right foot
Earth tumbles.
Inside his bubble, Spaceman sweats;
remembers his mother. Luna waves goodbye.
And he writhes like a new-born, adorably:
ballet-panics across the stage of the sky.
In the corner, his tin-can ticket –
back to Sunday lunch
and long endless summer,
and the smell of her sweat and “daddy” –
fades, to a dot, and is gone.
EXT. GREAT TITCHFIELD ST- DAY
A girl approaches an old lady and a chicken outside a coffee shop.
GIRL
Is that your chicken?
OLD LADY
Yes.
The lady puts the chicken on her shoulder and walks off.
‘Purge’ by Sofi Oksanen:
It makes oneself want to do just that, entirely. Well, this was until I realised that purging wasn’t in fact the ‘art’ of sticking one’s fingers down one’s throat. Who knew? No, it in fact means to ‘purify’, to ‘cleanse’. Same thing, if you ask a slightly bohemian bulimia sufferer. Either way, purge still works for this one, that is, if applied with a loofah and concentrated in the general open-eye area.
Judging this book by it’s cover, it wreaks of self loathing and bulimia! And the man in the background obviously isn’t sticking around to see which one surfaces first. By the speed on him, my guess is the puke.
Think
Why are pigs pink?
Are they of a delicate nature and blush easily,
Or is it just their favourite colour.
I think they are pretty
And I’m sure you’d agree,
They wouldn’t look any good in Blue or Khaki.
Pigs are best pink.
The Adventures of Tintin
Explorers on the Moon
Hergé 1954
Airport; A song plays.
It’s ‘The Green, Green Grass
of Home’…
A Yankee cover.
Benji
Fastest Dog in the West
Joe Camp 1978
2000 was the future
when I was a kid.
2000 is a thread count
for my mum.
2000 has a Wikipedia entry.
In 2000 I moved to London.
Gisbourne, New Zealand was the first city to welcome the year 2000.
Kubrick didn’t live to the year 2000.
In the year 2000 the world was supposed to end.
Enigma 2000 has nothing to do
with the above prediction.
United Religions target
date was 2000.
2000 was official year of
culture and peace.
2000 was a leap year.
In 2000 Barbie represented educational excellence and new opportunities for girls.
Sydney hosted the Olympics
in the year 2000.
In 2000 Ken Livingstone becomes the first mayor of London.
Al Gore loses the presidential election in 2000.
I will never live to celebrate my 2000th birthday.
—Knock knock.
—Who’s there?
—It’s the police.
—It’s the police who?
—It’s the police. I’m afraid there’s been a terrible accident.
Monmorn.
Monday.
Monnight.